My ordination is now 13 days away....

Last Friday I met with the Bishop and we had a wonderful chat about what it means to be a Deacon, and also what my hopes and fears were about life as an ordained minister.

My biggest fear is that once I am wearing a clerical collar, everyone will expect me to have the answers to all of life's questions.  We talked about the fact that we are totally reliant on God in our ministry to sustain us and give us the words we need. It seems appropriate that I have been sent this prayer from Michael Ramsay recently:

Lord, take my heart and break it: break it not in the way I would like, but in the way you know best.  And because it is you who break it, I will not be afraid, for in your hands all is safe and I am safe.  Lord, take my heart and give it your joy, not in the ways I would like, but in the ways you know best, that your joy may be fulfilled in me.  So, dear lord I am ready to be your deacon. Amen


Three weeks and counting….

College finished a couple of weeks ago, and all essays have been handed in (much to my relief), it is now a time of waiting and praying.  It feels like I am in a limbo, or waiting in the departure lounge at the airport.   There continues to be a real mix of emotions, still feeling excited and nervous, but I am also starting to feel impatient as I wait for the day to arrive.

This week I have got my interview with the Bishop, after all, it is his decision to ordain me.  I am looking forward to meeting him, and praying with him and hearing what words he might have to say to me.

At the moment, I am feeling overwhelmed by the messages of support I am getting and the assurances of prayers.  Talking to people who have already been ordained, they assure me that all the emotions and feelings I am having are perfectly normal, even though they don’t always feel like it.  It is wonderful and humbling to have the support of so many people.

I will post again on the other side of my meeting with the Bishop.

Best wishes


Countdown to ordination

It is now a month until my ordination as a Deacon.  People told me that this year would go quickly and it certainly has!

How do I feel?  A real mixture of things: excited, nervous, apprehensive, impatient, unworthy.  I keep expecting someone to tell me that they have made a mistake and that is it not me after all.

The past couple of weeks have been quite momentous.  I have had my final report from college signed off, my ember cards (prayer cards for those who are being ordained) have been delivered and my cassock, albs and other bits and pieces have started to arrive.  Is this really happening I ask myself; is it really my name on those ember cards?  Yes, it is.  

The journey of discernment of a vocation can often be a long road, with many twists and turns.  There are a few steep hills to climb along the way too.  For some, ordination may seem like the finishing line, but it is another checkpoint on the road of discovering who and what God wants us to be.  Yes, it is a significant milestone, but we continue to be formed and shaped in the image of Jesus; and that process, whatever our vocation, never ends.

So, what is left to do over the coming weeks?  I have got one essay left to write, tickets for the ordination need to be sent out, then there is the rehearsal and the ordination retreat.  But amongst all of the busyness, I must pray.  I would ask for your prayers too, for me, and for all those who will be ordained this Petertide.



An initiative which encourages vocations to the priesthood across the Anglican Catholic traditionalist parishes of the Church of England has been updated as the ordination season approaches.

Here I Am ( works closely with the mainstream national Church of England vocations team ( ) encouraging candidates to come forward for the priesthood.

“We launched Here I Am almost three years ago now and we felt it was time, with a whole raft of ordinations coming up in June and July across the dioceses of the Church of England, to give our website and material a fresh look,” said Father Darren Smith, who co-ordinates the campaign.

The website has been refreshed, the logo and artwork updated and updated publicity materials have been produced.

In addition, a new series of videos has been directed featuring three recently ordained priests in which they explain their own vocational pathway and route to ordination.”

In the first video, launched yesterday, Father Edward Morrison, Curate of Cantley, in the Diocese of Sheffield, explains how God called him to the priesthood.

He explains how his work as an Officer Cadet in the Roy Navy played a big part: “ For a long time I thought that I was the sort of person that couldn’t be a priest but my experience in the Navy as an officer cadet showed me that God seemed to be blessing the work that I was doing and gave me a lot of encouragement.”

He adds: “If you have a vocation to the priesthood I strongly recommend that you speak to a priest about it.”

Holy Week

The busyness of Holy Week catches me slightly by surprise. So far it far exceeds that of late Advent and Christmas. Being a deacon of The Society, serving in a parish under the care of the Bishop of Richborough, I have been fortunate to be asked to deacon two of Bishop Norman’s Chrism Masses.

On Tuesday I make the journey to Canterbury with members of my parish and of other Richborough Family parishes in Rochester and Canterbury Dioceses. The Chrism Mass, also attended by the Archbishop of Canterbury, takes place in the beautiful and ancient crypt. Naturally in such surroundings I am reminded of the great continuity of the Church and faith in England.

Fr Mathew
Assistant curate at Saint John’s Sevenoaks



I was very interested to read the current statistics produced by the Church of England’s Ministry Division, which celebrates the fact that under 30’s now make up a quarter of all people accepted for training for Church of England Ministry.  

Encouragingly the 2014 figures show that 116 under the age of 30 were accepted for training, the highest number for the last 25 years.  

A Church that for so long seems to have undervalued the contribution that young vocations can bring to priestly ministry, not least in terms of enthusiasm, new vision and energy, has sort to address this with the appointment of a young vocations advisor in the person of The Reverend Liz Boughton (DOB 1966).   

Min Div have come up with a number of new and imaginative schemes such as Mission Apprentices and Young Vocations Champions in each diocese in an attempt to target resources to this particular age group.

As Anglican Catholics young vocations has actually been one of our areas of strength and although we haven’t got exact figures, I think you only have to look at the age profile of Saint Stephen’s House to realise that this is something that we are achieving even with our limited resources and lack of Vocations Champions.  

Certainly the Here I Am Vocations Initiative which has been running now for just under a year has attempted to connect with this group.  The overall age profile of our videos and advertising literature seeks to promote vocations to both the younger candidate and ethnically diverse candidate.  Only last night whilst speaking to a church group on vocations a comment was made about the age profile of that particular congregation being perhaps higher than anybody would want.   

The person who made the comment also pointed out that many of our parishes seem to be in a similar position.  I sometimes ask myself how is it that we are able to attract younger candidates if that is the case, indeed we can be proud of the fact that currently the youngest serving incumbent in the Church of England is a Traditionalist (Father Richard Norman).  

Surely this is something to do with the fact that we talk about a priestly way of life, the giving of the whole of oneself, our young people are welcomed into the sanctuary and the majority of vocations are encouraged through the inspirational ministry of a particular parish priest.  

The beauty of our worship and the whole mystic of the Mass makes connections that are so very different to the trendy culture of Messy Church. 

But let’s not get complacent because the reality is for all of the Church that we constantly need to find new and imaginative ways of challenging people to think about their call to the priestly way of life.  

Our ministry should truly reflect a whole range of age profiles, and unless we continue to put all our energies into nurturing priestly vocations then we are bound to find not only a constant strain to fill vacant parishes, but little opportunity to take up the General Synod’s current encouragement to Flourish and Grow as prescribed in the 5 principles.  

The next Catholic Societies Vocations Conference is to be at Saint Stephens House Oxford on 28th-30th August.  Further details can be found at or from the Additional Curates Society This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it. Mrs Ann Babington 0121 382 5533.


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